Response is Specific

A couple of months ago, after I finished crocheting a poncho for myself, a friend asked me if I would make one for her. She rarely asks for anything and I was happy to do it. She gave me the yarn and I got started. Around this time, she’d also said something about writing up and selling the pattern for the poncho in the store where she works. I thought, “OK,” but it was not really that important to me and I did not commit one way or the other.

About a week after I’d started working on it, I got a weird feeling, that she asked me to make it for her but she really wanted me to make it for the store to go with my pattern. Notice, I opened by saying that she rarely asks for things, so missing that cue is on me. Continue reading

Open Solar Plexus – Hiding my True Self

Today in the Jedi Training discussion Forum (this was originally posted on another website in 2014), the facilitator mentioned that anyone with an Undefined Solar Plexus center is likely to hide some aspects of their truth from people so as not to have to confront the feared judgments or persecution from others. (She didn’t say this last part; they’re my words.)

I got this one locked down when I was a teenager – if not earlier – when it became apparent that my parents would not like to know what I was REALLY up to. This sounds typical of many teenagers, but I have to be honest and say that this self-preservation mechanism is alive and well today. It can seep into the simplest interactions if there’s any (perceived) threat that I’ll be judged or dismissed or completely rejected. Continue reading